After waisting so much time worrying and trying to impress Jack I have slowly realized how much I don’t need him in my life. He made me into somebody I am not. I was always worried and unhappy and now that he’s no longer apart of my life I can be happy again. To be honest I was always focused on making him like me. I always had this hopeless crush on hime even though I knew he would never like me back. I became someone I’, not. I really am this optimistic happy human being but the combination of him and David is toxic. I have cut both of these unworthy creatures out of my life and I have never felt so competent. I feel good enough and strong. I am starting a new business and honestly without Jacks negative influence we are actually getting things done. I think I though I needed Jack to survive almost as though I was addicted to the things he brought to into my life. It made no sense because he honestly did nothing for me. I realized I DON’T NEED HIM. I don’t need anyone. People that are in my life need to earn their place to be there and Jack was the last bit of scum that will ever enter my life. You want to know what sucks though? He never used to be like this. He was kind and warm and caring. He changed whether he admits it to himself or not. He became someone I want no part of. It really was sad to see him transform into the monster he has become. My friend asked me if I was going to tell his girlfriend what he did. My response was a simple and adequate “no.” Every time he kisses her or is with her he needs to understand that he isn’t honest and their relationship really isn’t real. He isn’t loyal or faithful and he doesn’t deserve her because he is nothing better than gum stuck on the side walk. I realize that there is a risk of him reading this post even though I doubt that he cares enough to still check this. If he does read this he will probably be his usual self and get pissed but if he was smart he would realize I am right. He has changed. I am not going to let him back in. Because I know he is poisonous to me. It just leads to me never feeling good enough. I hope he realizes that his ways of life will get him no where and he won’t become anything because like relationships life takes being honest, loyal and dedicated. You can’t get things if you don’t suffer and put the work into things that you should and right now he isn’t. To be honest he never will.
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